The N Word

Well I mean it is in modern society right now I feel like. This seems to still be around because some people are still racist. My bestfriend Zach is like half black and he uses the word all the time around other black people. It kinda bothers me but usually I don't say it because I'm white and I don't feel like I should be the one saying it because of past events in history when white people used that word against their slaves. It doesn't usually bother me to hear it because like I said my bestfriend uses it but it is more common for him to say it around other black people and then when he is with me he doesn't use it. I'm not gunna lie and say I have never said it because I have before and sometimes it has been derogatory. My dad's side of my family are very racist and they are still back in the old days where they use the word in a very negative way. My family doing this May have some effect on me and when I say it or if I say it but for the majority of the time I never use it. Most of the time I don't really hang out with people that use that word either so it doesn't really effect my life.